Thanks to the twitter I came across a song. It's probably one you've heard already, but I don't listen to the radio - the constant ads and talk crap drives me to distraction!
So, here is the first version I heard, it's not the original but I love these guys. The way they play, how much they must have practised to get it right. And wow, the instrumentation!
Then a friend posted this version the other day. This is the artist. I was a little unsure that I liked it at first. I like the guitar version, but I was a little transfixed by the video I have to say.
And the more I watch it, the more I like. I love the xylophoney glockenspiel thingy in the background, I LOVE the way Goyte and Kimbra are acting not just singing......now I have it on repeat, waiting for payday so I can go out and buy the album so I can listen to it without sucking down internet useage.
I say lately. pffft. I think it's been brewing for a while - when I really think about it, it's been since I sprained my ankle in November last year. So 5 months. *phew*
Some of it is frustration that it's taken so damn long to heal. and that's making me cranky I guess. I really should just let it go. it'll take as long as it takes. Plus as my brother likes to point out, maybe it's taking so long for a reason, that I need to slow down.
I slowed down. I have stood down from my position at my Playcentre, I'm still doing the Association stuff, but that's fairly light. And now it's school holidays.....
Now it feels like my day is rotating around feeding kids, baking bread and washing. Endless washing. I guess with 6 kids there is a LOT of washing anyways.....
Been trying to think of something to blog about, coz I've kinda hit a wall. You may have noticed I don't post much anymore. Mostly coz I don't think I have anything interesting to say. I never wanted this to be another whiney mum at home blog. There are plenty of them out there as it is......
Except that it means when all I do, well most of what I do is housework, well. There's only so many times I can post about that. So I'm waiting for something exciting, noteworthy, or even slightly interesting to happen to post about. And watching the news just does my head in, it's either nonsense stories - "celebrities" or sports, or stuff that just makes me lose my faith in humans. I can't write about that and stay sane.
Maybe I should lower my sights a bit. Post shorter stories, tell you funny anecdotes....
like Admiral Awesome referred to himself as "Grand Admiral A Man" :O) and he continues to mock the fact that I have an online life at all. He "live tweets" "I'm going to the lounge now. turning on the tv. eating some chips" funny man. Good thing I love him.
anyways, so that's why I've been quiet lately. Again.
I had a pretty shit week last week. it was a culmination of things, least of which, but probably most influentially, lack of sleep over too long a period. Years.
Monkey is mostly sleeping thru now, but I've been at this parenting thing for a while now (Padawan is at college/high school now) - so if you add it up, that = FUCKLOADS OF LOST SLEEP.
And they lie. You can never catch up. not properly.
Annnnnnyways. In imploding I discovered I have some very cool family and friends.
I would be lost without them. truly. We, Admiral and I, would be lost without them. I don't know how my parents raised us all without a network of people to steal us away to let them rest. I take my hat off to my parents. *doff*
So part of my crazy busy week that led to hiding away at home for a couple days (now, I realise to some people this doesn't sound like a crash and burn. Everyone is different. We all have different limits. You're just gonna have to trust me that I reached mine. Or near enough that it was scary. Time for intervention by me, before professionals needed calling in), was picking up a thing for a friend. And we had planned to catch up later in week to transfer said thing for $$ but it didn't happen.
I saw her yesterday. She not only had $ for the toys I had picked up, she had a care package for me. Awwwwwww!! Chocolate, chocolate biscuits and maltexo! So O for AWESOME :OD
I was texting her this morning, to thank her again and I had an epiphany! Beads of Love from Friends :O)
confused? I'll give some background..... a while back this gorgeous friend was showing me her labour photos, we were catching up as only mums can do and she showed me her Labour Beads that friends had made her. They were this neat necklace of beads, each from a different friend who was with her in spirit during a time when a woman really needs support. I thought at the time it was such an awesome idea.
Later a friend showed me her Playcentre Education Beads. Similar idea but she had made her own necklace, with a different bead for every assignment completed getting her Playcentre Early Childhood Diploma (6 courses!)
Anyone who knows me, has met me, knows I love me my jewellery, esp shiny things! But chunky, funky and bright is super too! And I keep things that people have given me, when I feel low I wear things B has given me, to remind me I am loved. I also have a bull charm on a necklace that is my "bullshit deflector" which I wear most days, but esp to tricky places!!
So, here's my idea - a challenge even - to gather beads from all my friends, those who want to anyways, and make a Beads of Love necklace that I can wear. A way to remind myself that altho I may feel alone, down, crappy, whatever....I am still loved. I still have value.
For the times I can't remember it for myself, I will have a physical reminder.
And if you wanna do this for a friend of yours who needs to know they are loved and supported, then I challenge you to gather up beads and make them a gift of LOVE :OD
Regardless of what life keeps throwing at me, I'm not a natural leader.
I'm naturally shy. I don't meet new people easily. I like people, in general. I like to be around them, and I definitely "recharge" by being around them, but people I know.
There is history behind this post, what life has been throwing at me lately, but I won't bore you with the details. I don't want this to be a whiny post. I just need somewhere to talk through my thoughts really.....
I posted on The Facebook recently that I'm shy. Half the people who responded didn't believe me. I think the fact that I have coloured hair and dress like I dress in the dark sometimes doesn't mean I'm confident - it's a fucken facade. I do it to GIVE myself confidence, NOT that I have it already.
In the last year I have done a couple of personality/behavioural typing courses - what I got most from it? I hate HATE being put in a box. My skin crawls when someone says "well, you reacted, you did this because you're an X. They always react that way."
No one can see in my head, no one but me knows why I act the way I do. And just because I may have a particular bent, doesn't preclude me learning about it and changing for the better. It is possible to fight your natural instincts.
I may have leadership leanings. I may be a person who likes to get things done. But I am also a person with strong "people pleasing" needs - so I don't want to get things done so bad that I would trample on others.
Also, if I am part of a group shouldn't we all be learning & growing & changing so that we can be our best, work together effectively toward our common goal? And fuck. COMMUNICATE effectively so that we can HAVE THE SAME FUCKEN GOAL!
But you know what? I don't care if I am in a leadership position, I will lead by example, but I don't think I can be the only one learning, changing , growing. I'm not that strong. If you have any ideas of how to survive that, then you're a wiser person than me.
Altho, I think we already covered that that isn't that hard to achieve - I'm faking it anyways.
a little while later.....after some ruminating & chatting to Admiral Awesome..... So, B questioned whether I want a rant out there in the interspere, but I don't think there's anything in here that I would regret sharing. I try to be fairly open and honest in my everyday life. For the most part what you see on The Facebook, The Twitter and real life is the real me. Also? Listening to this track helped me some.... >:O)
So, my Da keeps asking me when I'm going to post again.....
and seeing as how I now having a snazzy jizzy new laptop - which in keeping with the Star Wars theme of things in our house, I've named it after this chick..... it seems appropriate :O)
anyways, along with all the things that I've been doing lately - which coz it's been holidays has mostly been watching kids movies and reading books. Not edifying books. Have you been paying attention at all?!?
well, maybe a little edifying - I get ideas of things to try out with Admiral Awesome ;O) Thanks Romantic Fiction!! Oh yeah, speaking of the Admiral - while we were away recently (we had a 90th to attend, was good to see his family again, albeit for a whirlwind short time!) While seeing family, chatting with them about life the universe, 42 and everything, I realised that my husband is a fucken awesome man (I did have some clue, I married him afterall) and for the wonderful way he works hard to support us all, has a brilliant sense of humour (he was "live tweeting" the other day when I was trying to talk to him. "I've just been toilet. Now I'm talking to my wife. then I'm getting dinner. Look, I'm live tweeting" *eyeroll* yes honey. you're funny.)
where was I? oh yeah, the awesomeness of my awesome husband, plus all that stuff, he does things like sorts our finances so we can afford to buy me stuff, fancy stuff. AND HE PUTS UP WITH MY BULLSHIT. so I decided he deserved a promotion. Hence - Admiral Awesome. With this new title he can now also tell when it's a trap (star wars reference. if you don't get it, google Admiral Ackbar)
so, the reason for this today? Dad, you wanted to know what I've been up to? Mostly trying to get this out of my head, but loving it all the same.....
Now to do some more crotchetting - I will post pics tomorrow of my holiday projects completed. Do the roar. Do the roar. Do the roar. Do it. :O)
I
wanted to post something, coz it's been a while, but I'm having
technical difficulties with my phone - which is where I've been taking
pics lately coz it's easier to upload them to the puter.
so, alas, alack I have no post at the mo.... I've
finished a bigger crotchet monkey for STFU. and I've been pondering
things. But with the technical snafu I'm not really in a place where I
can be bothered typing up all my ponderings.
Altho
I will, you'll note, ramble on about bullshit. *shrug* I've tried to
work out how my brain works and failed. You are welcome to explain it to
me!!
anyways....here's an interesting link in lieu of pics from me
and all going well, I will have things fixed in the next day or so. I hope so, coz it's really starting to piss me off. I will say before I go, YAY for brothers who are awesome, understand technical stuff and are able to give advice from miles away!! you know who you are ;OD
I got all dressed up the other day, got ready, met the kid sitter and fled out the door to my physio appt.
Arrived on time. Awesomeness. Then the receptionist asked for my name again.... I was a day early. *facepalm*
On the up side I've been productive over the weekend.....
Dyed my hair again
Blue frog
And crotchetted these two gorgeous if slightly weird looking creatures....
A green squirrel. Of course.
And now I'm working on a monkey for Dude.... then STFU & Ginger want monkeys too, but I think they will be a little bigger. Or I'm gonna spend my days trying to find these little 10cm buggers all round the place all day long.....
Not so much fun. But I'm enjoying the being creative process. and also being able to reasonably easily adapt the recipes (read: patterns) by myself, even tho I'm a relative novice at this crotchetting lark.
And now I must go break up another fight. The manufacturers of waterslides FUCKEN LIED!! It's not all happy children laughing & playing here. I'm blaming the muggines. I think *fingers crossed* that medicating them with iceblocks might work.
