Monday, September 22, 2014
I know now why I was feeling so crappy when I lasted posted....I was coming down with the flu!
So, I know I said to myself that now Monkey has started school, and I am officially a "Lady of Leisure" *snort*, I was going to post more often.
Yeah. Have I mentioned I'm shit at setting goals and sticking to them??
Anyhoos...things are good here. Usually busy and craziness. The Chickens who stopped laying over winter have started again, altho Soup, who have never laid, started harrassing Leia, so we killed here the other weekend. She was a tricky one to gut so I gave up after accidentally pulling off her venthole.
I kid you not.
Best not add any words to that.....
So moving on. This is my hair now. I went thru a stage of keeping it real short, with a mohawk, then it went a bit wrong so I started over (read: shaved it all off) and then finally let it grow a bit. this is hard as I have not a lot of patience.
Anyhoo....this is me trying different stuff so I don't get bored with it and shave it off again!
I like it tho, so although it takes a bit of maintenance I've had this in for over a week now. And funnily, it was Admiral's idea to do the different colours, I just had it up in the hairties. Yes, conservative Admiral suggested this. Gotta love him for continuing to keep me on my toes, surprising me.
So, Monkey is doing awesome at school, when I thought he would need another term before he was ready - yay for pleasant surprises!! My Big Brother is coming back this way soon, so I'm excited about that too!
And now I must sign off and do shopping and other works stuff - you know Lady of Leisure activities *snort* Leisure my arse ;O)
Monday, August 25, 2014
Thursday, August 21, 2014
I've hit a bit of a wall.
My youngest kid started school 5 weeks ago, which is exciting and awesome coz he's doing sooooo well with it. I wasn't sure that he was ready, I was prepared to hold off sending him (legally kids in NZ don't have to start school till they are 6 years old, just societal expectation is that they start at 5yrs). I had made plans to support him, talked to school and Playcentre so it was ok, I prepped myself so I didn't have expectations of having time to myself.....and then he started at 5 and has run with it. He's amazing.
I am in awe him.
And then all the other shit that has been happening in my life in the last 6-9 months (69 months? 6 TO 9 months) hit me all at once. BAM.
It's dumb coz I thought I had processed this stuff when it happened. As it happened. I have thought about things, and re thought about them and talked to people who are smarter than me. But no. Apparently I have shit to yet deal with.
After a month of this I'm kinda a bit sick of feeling crappy. I have been fighting exhaustion and wondering if my depression is getting worse, or if it's just catching up to me after 15 years of sleep dep and preschoolers. I've thought about ways i can get myself through this, setting some fixed things into my day so that I'm not just floating through the day. I have found that altho I have 6 free hours a day I feel like I'm achieving less than I used to. So I thought I would have a nap everyday and go skating during the day, and write this more. So far I've achieved the napping. :O/
All this is to say that I sat down twice today to write this, and had nothing - although this post wouldn't suggest such huh?.....
Anyways, This was in the school newsletter the other week and it made me giggle..
(it's in reference to parents parking, dropping kids off at school)
"C'mon people, we are all road users and we need to be respectful of the rules that guide us.
Everyday we have cars double parking, parking on yellow lines, parking too close to the pedestrian crossing and people being impatient. Allow me to dispel some myths; Children do not melt in the rain and they can walk more than 50m to or from the school gate, in fact it may be the only exercise they get. The last thing we want is your child, our students, being hurt. Thanks to those behaving thoughtfully"
So glad it's not just me who thinks the way I do.... ;OD
Monday, June 9, 2014
Was at Derby the other week and did a cartwheel as part of walking back from the toilet stretch. I was a gymnast as a child and I still find cartwheels, handstands and such relaxing....*shrug* I don't question it too hard.
Anyways, a mate asked if I could do the cartwheel on wheels. I replied "ah no. You know me and balance aren't always friends!" (i have a history at derby of falling and getting wicked bruises even when I aiming to stay upright. I think it's more coz I push boundaries and my brain often thinks I can do stuff my body isn't -quite- up to!)
Five minutes later..... I think "fuckit. Challenge accepted. Now I have to bloody well try it"
And huzzah! Lookit here....
So there ya go. I know I kinda cheated so that I wasn't really using my wheels, but *shrug* screw you hippie, -I- can do a cartwheel on skates.
Beat that with a stick ;O)
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Here we go in no particular order....
|The Jedi Frights team|
|It was a bit of a thematic event....|
|Yeah so, i'd dropped my panty for the 2nd time....|
|Look mum no penalties!|
|My Rimutaka Roller Derby folks|
|Being Pivot in a jam|
|being short has the advantage that I can shoulder check others hips and that means I have advantage over them on balance. yay!|
|Just being my usual classy self....|
|check out that beautiful form|
|and, lastly, the obligatory arse shot! you're welcome. *curtsey*|
Saturday, April 19, 2014
So I've been meaning to write this for a while, road to hell and all....
I got this idea thanks to a link @Stitchpunk posted to as part of her morning routine on ravelery. It was an octopus scarf. http://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/epic-octopus-scarf-with-tentacles---pdf-crochet-pattern
The concept grew from there.
Anyways..... fast forward a number of conversations and a few months.....ta da!!!
I'm quite proud of it really. Even if the kid would rather sleep with it then wear it *sigh*
Kids are so weird o_O
Monday, April 7, 2014
I'm cautious of how much I wanna share here coz I know that this is public. But I need to process all that's going on somehow, and by writing it seems a logical thing.
I know I have spoken before about Playcentre; being involved at a national level, and where I see my place, my usefulness in the bigger picture of this awesome organization. It's been such a huge part of my life, my kids life, my adult life, my becoming who I am today, and my strong conviction that it's time to give back.
This is coming to a head. And I'm not sure how I should push back on those holding me up. I respect these people immensely. I know there pulling on my brakes is action of love for me, not out of any whim to stump my journey. But I believe, and the more I learn (and boy did I learn more this weekend!) The more I believe I'm right, the more I feel I'm on the right path, the more I wonder if having the guts and strength to push back is PART of the journey. The next step that I need to complete to move forward. That maybe it's something I need to learn about.
And how do you know until you try??
I know the universe will tell me unequivocally if it's not the right time - it always has in the past!!
So. Next steps? How to respectfully tell people that I respect that they are wrong and I need their support whether they think they should give it or not. Hmm, should be an interesting conversation. Oh, did I mention these are people I still have to work closely with in another capacity when all is done and dusted?? Yeah, hmm, I see my hesitation and I raise you nervousness, shyness, lack of confidence and doubt.
Fuckin awesome combo in my brain right now....
So I'ma sit back and enjoy this flight home coz there's nothing else I can do about ANY of this now, midair. Not even post this!! :oD