If You Ever Find Yourself In The Dark & You Can't See

 


 Had to dress a bit more formally today.  Well, as formally as *I* get anyways...



I loved this song first time I heard it anyways, but today it takes on deeper meaning.

And I wanna send it out to a friend who I saw for the first time in about 14 years today. 
At her dad's funeral.  

Not the best reason to catch up. Hopefully before she goes home we will have the chance for a better chat. She is an amazing woman. Well she was when we were growing up. She was a huge part of my formative years and has been in my thoughts often over the years. 

As per usual in situations like this, I find I have no words to express what I'm thinking/feeling. They all seem inane, inadequate, unable to convey the meaning I want to  share.  

Gonna share this song too, coz it always makes me think of this amazing woman - she introduced me to this band in my youth, simply by sharing something that she enjoyed. As with so many memories I have from my youth, she is there - and it always brings a smile to my face. 

 I guess I wanna say thank you. Thank you for being part of my life, part of what has made me who I am today. And today I wish you peace. As you say good bye to your dad, that you have peace, remember him as the awesome man he was. 


And that could never be in doubt, coz he raised you, and you are awesome to me.  *hug*  :O)
 

I found my theme song!!

Now to hire myself a Theme Song Guy!  ;OD

Yup that's me. Birthday suit and all....

Surrounded by lunatic monkeys too  *sigh*  :OD 

P.S....coz llearch asked. here is Ginger's head.  Not a great shot, but I'm an amatuer, so *shrug* you know, bite me. 


You can see the bruise tho where he hit the corner of the table.
Awesome children that I have  :O/

Oh!! I forgot to add....

My birthday present from my folks - picked out by my dad even!!

 The Sparklery tights that is. :O)

And Dude's head is getting betterer and betterer 

as the weather gets worser and worser - we had a monster hail storm on saturday!!  And not it's thunder and butt loads of rain!!

These photos were taken at least half an hour after the hail, but with rain still falling.....

Once again I would like to say - YAYFUCKENYAY for our wood fire.

that is all.  ;OD

Hey you! Yeah you there, the one staring at me.

Would ya quit it.

Actually I don't mind the staring - when it gives you a smile to see me dressed the way I am.

But when I leave the house like this

Or like this

Or when I wear this kinda thing  

Or Even this kinda thing...

 Please just stop and think before you look at me like this

All my 'bits' are covered. 

And I'm not asking you to wear the same as me.  

I'm sane. No, really I am.  And I am still a functioning member of society - my kids behave in public, are polite to people, have manners and listen when I talk to them (mostly!) They are loved and THEY KNOW they are loved.  And yes I look like their older sister, but I can't help my height (there's only so tall a shoe I can physically walk in). Plus, so far, they're not embarrassed to be seen with me - in fact They LIKE my clothes. 


I'm teaching them freedom of expression, but with dignity, not at the expense of others. I'm teaching them it's ok to be different, to not follow the crowd, to be yourself. I'm teaching them to be tolerant.  And most importantly that I will love them, DO love them no matter how they dress - coz it's what's on the inside that counts!


Think about what you are teaching your children when they see you look at others that way. When they hear you talk nasty things about people, esp people you don't know. You don't know the story behind how they look. 

And maybe next time when you see someone dressed a little differently to you  give them a smile instead of a disparaging look. A smile that says "well done you for being you!!"  :OD

13 years and counting.....

So romantic! he bought flowers, I put our wedding present sheets on the bed

Slightly sidetracked by a sick Monkey, this post is from 10 (*ahem* due to technical glitch - is now 12) days ago....

In case you hadn't picked up on it, this seems to be a developing theme in my life of late.

And I'm not feeling sorry for myself here. Well, maybe a little. But I'm just laying it out there - I get sidetracked from the things I wanna do by the things I have to deal with.  But, *shrug* meh. I made this bed, I have to sleep in it. 

And for the most part, deep down I don't regret my life. I love my kids, my husband, my choices (most of them - show me someone who never regrets anything and I'll show you a liar in denial!)

So! I wanted to share about our wedding anniversary. We went out for dinner - with only a few hiccups along the way. Like me waiting for him to come home before I got dressed (I had fed the kids and was getting them into bed). And he was waiting in town for me. *facepalm* 

We were only half an hour late for the booking. Not too bad really given I have to drive over half hour from our place to town.  


Another nice moment was when Captain suggested we don't talk about work, or the kids or Playcentre. Coz it's a date. It's us time. 


Huh? um, ok. well then I got nothing. 

I got a new dress......does that count?  and a new necklace (that I had worn already. shhhhhh!!)


so dinner was lovely. We were at Logan Brown. There was never a doubt it would be anything else!  nom nom nom nom 


And Captain was a little adventurous too, not just having the chicken! 


Evening went a little awry when he told me to stop talking coz he was too tired to listen anymore.


Good thing we've been doing this dance for 13 years now, and I know despite his "nice" comments every now and then, that he loves me still.


Also this kinda thing always helps.....

Awwwwwwwww!!  not that it was his idea, but still we'll let him claim credit shall we?  ;O)

Footnote:  for those who heard about Dude hitting his head 2 weeks ago (yeah, and then Ginger Ninja did it a week later. Monkey has been sick, sounding like he was gonna lose his lungs or something nasty, NOW SirTalks has the Pox. Chicken that is. Maybe I do hate my life a little......)  ANYWAYS. my point was, it's healing nicely. Dude's head. 

See ---->  


So that's one good thing from the last two weeks.  *sigh*  :O|

While We Shake Rattle and Roll here....

So, we had another earthquake here in little old New Zealand.

I thought it was perhaps a welly (wellington to you out of towners) one, but alas no. We still don't get one. It was Taupo this time  this is it here but check out the quake drums - now!!


but then I came across this wee ditty, thanks Susan :OD

that is all  *giggle*  :O)

Hey llearch do you do Hold Music too?

I've been wanting to post all week.

But then Monkey got sick (amongst all the other crap I have happening on an ongoing basis) and neither of us has been getting much sleep.

He woke in the wee hours of wed morn sounding quite wheezy. And hot too. and altho he was able to feed the noisiness of his breathing concerned me such that I rang Healthline (yay for NZ free call places!) They reckoned it was croup. 

Awesome.

So he was still on and off not sounding right by the proper morning so after dropping kids to school we went to the doc.  "his chest is clear" *phew* "it's a virus" 

"who told you? The Coast Guard?!?" Thanks Billy.  I so LOVE knowing that wee clip. 

so anyways, the rest of this week has been a mess of a poor wee boy who hasn't been able to sleep even though he looks like a zombie with black circles under his eyes, a pale face and whinyness. And a mum who due to the lack of sleep has no energy nor motivation to do stuff. 

And I don't mean the stuff like vacuuming (we all know I don't do that on a Good Day!) I mean the stuff that I need to do - work stuff. Stuff that has a deadline.  *facepalm* 

But now, four days later, the boy at least has gone for a sleep. I however am still in my pj's. All the things I have been ruminating on during the week, but unable to get to the computer to type them up are getting lost in my head. 


So I hand you over to Llearch and his hold music..... *whisper* coz I can't get the pics I wanted to post to load on this fucken piece of shit page so I'm giving up in disgust!!

Plus I have work to do. Not paid work. But work work nonetheless.  :O|