Last Coupla Months

So, in a recent post I was talking about how I've started meds. Mood Stabilisers I'm told, altho they are more commonly known as antidepressants.

I've also started seeing a guy, a therapist, counsellour. He said that my quick reaction to the meds means that it's most likely a biorganic thing, a condition that I've had since birth. Good to know it's not my kids driving me insane.  ;O)

Since I last posted it's been a bit crazy busy, hence the no posting. Sorry about that....

What's been happening?  Well, I went to Playcentre Conference which was work ish fun ish, tiring (coz of late nights and early mornings! plus it's tiring discussing stuff all day!) Loved it, so glad I went.

Then a coupla weeks later I had a Playcentre Workshop weekend. Thankfully like Conference it was relatively local so not so much travel time involved. Also like conference it was good but I cam home tired! It's such a boon for me to be in the same room as people who are passionate about quality early childhood education, who have knowledge I can absorb but are also so down to earth that I can relate to them and we always seem to have fun hanging out, even if we've just met!! Yay Playcentre. So Awesome!

Then the next weekend, my sis was free to watch the kids for us, so Admiral and I took off for a coupla nights. This wasn't brilliant timing as Admiral had been off work sick, but I didn't want to wait any longer. We don't get away BY OURSELVES nearly often enough. And every time we talk about doing it more regularly, then time goes by and we haven't been away for a couple of years *headdesk*    so we went away. He coughed. I was exhausted. But also, we talked and did things we don't normally have time for, like watch movies in bed with breakfast, go to day time movies, out for dinner, then have a massage before coming home.  Beautiful.

What else? This week the kids have been sick. I think they have what the Admiral had. So I've had at least one school kid home so far this week, some days more. Not so cool.  I've had a friends surprise birthday night out, which was awesome but not early. So I'm a little sleep deprived. nothing really that new there huh?!

Now I'm focussing on getting myself well, finding a balance between what i want to do (Playcentre stuff etc) and what I ACTUALLY have the energy to do *LeSigh*

I'm sure I'll be back to keep ya posted.... :O)

oh yeah, and I'm blonde now. Just blonde. Been getting compliments too, which is always nice!  ;OD  

Sad Panda

So, after nearly a year of having my LilBig Brother living in the same town as me, seeing him at least once a week if not more he's moving back to London.

I'm a Sad Panda.

Who's gonna cut my kindling? Who's gonna vacuum my house? Watch my kids when I need a nap? Fix my computer???

I jest. Mostly.

I'm gonna miss him. For more than that he now knows how to make awesome coffee with our snazzy new espresso machine. 

He makes me laugh, he makes me think, he helps me be a better person. And as his ticket is open ended I don't know when I'll see him again. It's all kinda weird, coz he's been overseas for a long time, for most of my life he's lived in different cities from me, if not different countries. But like I said, after nearly a year I'm now used to him being around...

and this came to mind this morning when I was thinking about what the hell I'm gonna do with my tuesdays after he leaves tomorrow

oh dear lord please somebody feed that woman a sandwich!!

But seriously folks, i'll miss you Si. Travel safe. You know the rest. 
Love you *HUUUUUG*  :OD
 

Away and Back Again.

Not that you probably noticed I was missing.....

I was away on the weekend at Playcentre Conference. An awesome opportunity to catch up with other people who are passionate about Playcentre!  YAY!!

Along with refuelling my emotional/spiritiual tank though was late nights, and weirdly one VERY early morning.  Yup, Saturday saw me on Kapiti beach at dawn while some friends swam. I'm not *THAT* crazy!! It was, I have to say, gorgeous. It's been a while since I've seen a sunrise and there was quite a spectacular one put on display. Plus, pretty much deserted beach? Niiiiiice.

What else? there is too much, let me sum up.
I got my face painted. 

I got to share silly jokes with awesome parents. (Conference had a "survivor" theme)

I got to play my uke, share my knowledge, look like I know shit (when discussing the new constitution!) and absorb learning from other wise people. Also, I got to compare notes with those who have gone before me, who have stepped in these footprints already and can reassure me that it's ok, it will work out, it will be worth it in the end.

And then I got home to my Tribe of Lunatics.....I'm shattered!!  3 days of being home and it doesn't stop! I guess that's mumhood for ya, a neverending battle of houseworking & loving.

And really? I don't think I'd change it for the world....

Well, maybe for some uninterrupted sleep  ;OD

Yeah, This. Awesome.

So, on the toes of the drugs, I can sing this with feeling now.

Plus it's a really awesome album.  I love it. LOVE IT!
 
Yay  :OD

 

Loving The Chemicals

So a couple of weeks ago now (yeah yeah yeah I've been trying to write this post for a while now, you'll understand why it's taken me so long by the end of it....) 

a couple of weeks ago I bit the bullet. I went to the docs and asked for help with working out why I've been feeling so crap for so long. Dragging my arse around. You know what I'm talking about, coz I've been in a funk, I've whinged about it I'm sure.

So the consensus was that I have depression, potentially brought on by exhaustion. Can't imagine how that happened ;O)


So I got some drugs. Within aday of taking them I felt better. My head felt clearer and altho I was *physically* still tired I didn't feel like I was dragging my body around. The weight had lifted. Had a conversation about this with my brother, he commented it "was just the chemicals"  that I still have to change my habits, rest more and all that.


I know this. And yet. I'm LOVING the chemicals!!

Still feeling exhausted physically. had a sleep day on friday. Now if I could only get Monkey to sleep thru the damn night I could really work at kicking this sucker to the curb baby! :O/

with that in mind, seeing as he had me up half the night, I'm off to have a bath. Look after me time. Dude is home sick, so he can watch Monkey for a while.

Sounds fair right??  ;OD 

Stuck on Replay

Thanks to the twitter I came across a song. It's probably one you've heard already, but I don't listen to the radio - the constant ads and talk crap drives me to distraction!

So, here is the first version I heard, it's not the original but I love these guys. The way they play, how much they must have practised to get it right. And wow,  the instrumentation!

Then a friend posted this version the other day.  This is the artist. I was a little unsure that I liked it at first. I like the guitar version, but I was a little transfixed by the video I have to say.

And the more I watch it, the more I like. I love the xylophoney glockenspiel thingy in the background, I LOVE the way Goyte and Kimbra are acting not just singing......now I have it on repeat, waiting for payday so I can go out and buy the album so I can listen to it without sucking down internet useage.

See what you think...  :OD

 

Funky

So, hmmm,  been in a bit of a funk lately. 

I say lately. pffft. I think it's been brewing for a while - when I really think about it, it's been since I sprained my ankle in November last year. So 5 months. *phew*

Some of it is frustration that it's taken so damn long to heal. and that's making me cranky I guess.
I really should just let it go. it'll take as long as it takes. Plus as my brother likes to point out, maybe it's taking so long for a reason, that I need to slow down.

I slowed down. I have stood down from my position at my Playcentre, I'm still doing the Association stuff, but that's fairly light.  And now it's school holidays.....

Now it feels like my day is rotating around feeding kids, baking bread and washing. Endless washing.  I guess with 6 kids there is a LOT of washing anyways.....

Been trying to think of something to blog about, coz I've kinda hit a wall. You may have noticed I don't post much anymore. Mostly coz I don't think I have anything interesting to say. I never wanted this to be another whiney mum at home blog. There are plenty of them out there as it is......

Except that it means when all I do, well most of what I do is housework, well. There's only so many times I can post about that. So I'm waiting for something exciting, noteworthy, or even slightly interesting to happen to post about.  And watching the news just does my head in, it's either nonsense stories - "celebrities" or sports, or stuff that just makes me lose my faith in humans. I can't write about that and stay sane.

Maybe I should lower my sights a bit. Post shorter stories, tell you funny anecdotes....

like Admiral Awesome referred to himself as "Grand Admiral A Man" :O)  and he continues to mock the fact that I have an online life at all. He "live tweets"  "I'm going to the lounge now. turning on the tv. eating some chips"   funny man.  Good thing I love him.

anyways, so that's why I've been quiet lately. Again. 

I hope to have things to share again.   :O)