So, that was interesting.....
I'm cautious of how much I wanna share here coz I know that this is
public. But I need to process all that's going on somehow, and by
writing it seems a logical thing.
I know I have spoken before about Playcentre; being involved at a
national level, and where I see my place, my usefulness in the bigger
picture of this awesome organization. It's been such a huge part of my
life, my kids life, my adult life, my becoming who I am today, and my
strong conviction that it's time to give back.
This is coming to a head. And I'm not sure how I should push back on
those holding me up. I respect these people immensely. I know there
pulling on my brakes is action of love for me, not out of any whim to
stump my journey. But I believe, and the more I learn
(and boy did I learn more this weekend!) The more I believe I'm right,
the more I feel I'm on the right path, the more I wonder if having the
guts and strength to push back is PART of the journey. The next step
that I need to complete to move forward. That maybe it's something I
need to learn about.
And how do you know until you try??
I know the universe will tell me unequivocally if it's not the right
time - it always has in the past!!
So. Next steps? How to respectfully tell people that I respect that they
are wrong and I need their support whether they think they should give
it or not. Hmm, should be an interesting conversation. Oh, did I
mention these are people I still have to work closely with in another
capacity when all is done and dusted?? Yeah, hmm, I see my hesitation
and I raise you nervousness, shyness, lack of confidence and doubt.
Fuckin awesome combo in my brain right now....
So I'ma sit back and enjoy this flight home coz there's nothing else I
can do about ANY of this now, midair. Not even post this!! :oD